Megan Leyman

Hello everyone!

You may have guessed I like women because I am trying to be one, but thought I would go more into it.

Just a heads up that I will be pretty open about my thought processes throughout the years, that some might think really weird.

Since school, I have noticed girls differently what a normal boy would back then, well I liked girls as a normal lad would do (liked them til about a few years ago, I like guys now which you would think I would make a huge song and dance about but compared to everything else in my life it’s quite tame) but part of me envied them as they were different to me as this was around the time puberty hit all of us and I was really curious on how they did things differently to boys.

Over time I really wanted to try to understand how girls were growing up in comparison to boys, curious then and still curious about a variety of things now. I bought products only girls would use to pretend I was going through it, even though my body was never going to do the same thing as theirs. Heck I was like this all the way up til I started my transition as there was other things to think about.

I know if you ask most women, they would say the monthly stick is a pain in the ass but still I was jealous of it, as growing up was telling me that I hated the body I had even though I kept trying to deny it and what they go through is something really only those born female would go through.

As accepted in previous posts, I know whatever I do my body is male regardless even if I change my male genitalia to look like a woman’s, it wont be the same but still I want to be close.

I have always looked up to women since an early age as I had a bad father role model so looked up to my mum a lot more growing up who was amazing for helping to bring up me and my brother by herself.

Throughout school and heck even work now there are women who I admire, not there aren’t any men around to look up to instead but they have always seemed to have stood out to me a lot more.

A friend who I used to work with, said many years ago to me before I came out while I was experimenting with things that girls aren’t just make-up, boys and clothes and those words have always stood out to me. Heck I think I’ve brought this up a few times throughout this blog but I just can’t help it.

It’s because of that I envy some women because of their confidence and this weird non describable aura they have that you know you can trust them and they would help you out with any problems you got.

With that, I think I got to the point I was trying to make, if you got any questions comment down below