Megan Leyman

Hello all

I have a rubbish poker face, I’ve always had the issue of showing my emotions very easily, been like this for as long as I remember.

I have the problem of always carrying what people think of me, not in a vain way, I just don’t want to annoy anyone.

Since starting to take hormones as part of my transition, it has been a challenge at times taking control of my emotions despite also being on anti-depressants. I won’t comment on the physical changes the hormones have given me, but i can say the hormones have changed how I feel, think and react, only slightly.

I mean, I am slightly a bit more bitchy at times than I used to be, thankfully it’s not all the time, it just happens occasionally.

Very rarely do I get emotional at random moments, take a few weeks ago when I got into work, perfectly fine just before, just when I got in, alongside sweating (as it was a hot day), I started to get emotional.

I was able to work through it, maybe it was because of losing a family member a week ago but I already cried and all that during the days leading up to that day or that I was briefly off hormones for a few days as I ran out and I had a issue getting some more (I will back on it the day this happened).

It honestly surprised me, it was for hormones for sure, which occasionally gives me hot flushes too.

The path for this transition hasn’t been a smooth one, that’s for sure, but I will keep on venturing on til I read the end goal!

Megan