Megan Leyman

I’ve gone into so much about my life in my posts in the past few years, but why?

Before I had this blog, we are going all the way to 2009/2010 when I was in college, and I was studying graphic design. 

For my final major project in the course, I decided on a fictional t-shirt business called Bonfirecherry and to document the project via video blogs which I uploaded to a vimeo account. 

I no longer have a vimeo account, thankfully I uploaded them to my facebook page so here are a few from back then. 

edit: FOUND MY ANOTHER VIMEO ACCOUNT I HAD BACK IN COLLEGE so sharing these I’ve just found while doing this post, it’s a first for me too re-watching these!

I love the one below the most as my best friend is asking me questions, still love her now!

I loved doing video blogs, I could get what was on my mind out of it, so I kept doing them even when I finished college and tried to turn Bonfirecherry into a real business, doing prints instead of t-shirts.  

I set up a website to advertise my print business and alongside that I had a blog on there. 

I used to blog about my print work on a weekly basis called the Cherry Post which I started all the way in 2013 and lasted up to this year, so exactly 10 years. Before coming out as Megan officially in 2019, I slowly talked about my personal life alongside anything print related as the business was just me, so I thought it show people my life outside of prints. 

I mainly wanted to talk about Megan related stuff back then as I wasnt sure about myself and didn’t really have anyone to talk to, so thought writing it down somewhere it will help people around me understand where I am coming from. In recent years, I mainly do it to help someone in a similiar situation to me. You might say what I’m sharing online is my legacy, something I can leave behind showing everyone who knows me what I was truly like as I don’t really hide a lot, i’ve got some regrets/mistakes that I have deleted but that’s different.

During the Bonfirecherry years I did start video blogging again as I had stuff to talk about which I don’t always wanted to just share in text and doing it in college helped me not be nervous about it. If you watch the videos above and then watch the video at the bottom of the post, my confidence has changed so much over the years.

Over top I was ok being open about myself, it’s why transitioning must be ok for me as I’ve been ok with myself online, it’s just dealing with it in real life has been the challenge! 

Of course, as much as I love being about myself, I do have things I want to keep to myself.  

I have briefly talked about a certain friend and a certain family member in my previous posts & they will be a brief mention as I never want to talk about them again as it hurts so keeping that heart ache to myself and select few. 

Doing a blog post about certain aspects of my life, I need to draw a line on what I am ok with & not ok with (such as what I talk about above). It’s tricky to find that line, heck I have talked about suicide & masturbation in earlier posts which is not something everyone is ok to talk about, but I did without much thought. 

In a way, it’s the same when it comes to speaking, you have to think before you speak.  

I admit this post doesn’t really have a conclusion or really a point, as I just want to get this off my mind, it was fun to hunt down some old videos from my college days and after. I can say I have gained a truck load of confidence since my college days; I still have my friends from then plus more and I am currently a lot more happier with myself since then. Its taken 13 years but finally getting near the same weight I was back then haha. 

I still use video blogs even though the fire on Bonfirecherry has been put out, I use them to document my journey of learning how to speak more feminine

Megan