Megan Leyman

Hi

I normally plan to post 3 posts in the same way but I’m on my break at work and got a lot on my mind so thought I write it all out, better to get it out of my head then keep it in.

I’m just annoyed with myself.

I know I want surgery to help transition male to female, well to help me look like the woman I want to be but the problem is my weight.

I know what the problem is, it’s my weight.

I tend to snack when I’m at home, I’ve got like a set routine on when I want to snack.

I know this is the reason behind the weight problem, the time I’m writing this I’m 19st 4 pounds, tons over the weight I’m supposed to be.

I know that’s the reason, why won’t I stop?

It’s like some part of me doesn’t want to change, despite the rest of me wanting to.

I’ve got unconscious part of my brain that just wants me to know snack and not change but I don’t know why that’s the case.

I’ve been over 20 years to come to this part of my life that I want this, maybe that snack part of me still wants me to the man my parents wanted me to be when they raised me.

Oh I don’t know, there isn’t really any point to this post part from I want to vent.

I think that’s it, thanks for reading.

Megan