Megan Leyman

Hello everyone!

I suppose this sounds as a Change is scary post in some form because it’s about changes regarding my transition.

I started my transition in 2019 when I was 29, for those past 29 years I have been called by my birth name of Matthew.

Part of me is grateful that my mum gave me a great name but, it’s just not me, not anymore.

Just in recent years ahead of my decision to start transitioning, I started to dislike my given name, I was able to escape it by cross dressing as the happier me and giving myself a new name.

I have always liked giving myself nick names ever since I was a kid.

My earliest memory of having a nickname was when I was 11-13 when I started to have a connection with one of my close best friends via email and I wanted to be called King.

I know a weird nickname, if memory serves it’s because of a story I decided to write in my spare time called The World which got inspiration from the .hack games (the originals series for the playstation 2, 20 years and still no remaster, what the hell?!).

I liked the name Cassie when I started to cross dress in school shortly after. I have no idea where I got the name from as I can’t remember anyone fictional and in real life with that name.

My female persona had different names throughout the years not just sticking with Cassie, it was a great way of getting away from my real identity which I was starting to dislike more and more at times, it’s why cross-dressing continued throughout college & after.

In the past few years, I decided to split my life as Matthew and Megan/Cassie etc into two lives til I was able to come out publicly.

I was able to be Matt at work and with family but was able to change to my female persona around friends or in my alone time.

Only in 2019 I was able to come out to my family about my troubles and confirming it wasn’t a phase. I have mentioned this but best to repeat it here, but I never really consulted my family on my name change of Megan, I did it on my own and I do regret of not asking my family to this day but what is done, is done.

It’s why I am OK for my family to still call me by my birth name as I will always be that name to them, it’s my way of getting karma back for being greedy and not consulting them ahead of time.

My family are slowly getting their heads around with my change and they have thought their own names for me such as Margaret, heck another new nickname for me and I suppose I can smile at that and end the post.

Thanks for reading!

Megan